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i can't open up and cry, cause i've been silent

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i can't open up and cry, 'cause i've been silent all my life
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i feel like a muzzled dog
i'm emotionally hit around without people realizing it, and i keep crawling back because i'm a stupid fucking bitch
and then they do it again and it never stops and they don't even realsie they're hurting me
i'm never gonna forget when my friend said "i struggle a lot too. i just don't say it."
i'm fucking horrible
i'm scared that one day you'll all see me the way i see myself
and my head voice just keeps yelling at me for fucking up and i cower like a fucking dog who can't bark

i know the anxiety's only in my head
i know i know i know
but it's there and it's hard and it makes me upset

once i talked about my suicidal thoughts with my 'best friend' and i was yelled at because i'm stupid
he said that i'm upper class and have people who care and medication(not for anxiety?/??? he knows that. i'm on depressents for add and shit LET'S GIVE THE SAD GIRL DEPRESSENTS)
but it hurts because he said i could vent to him

i'm on my meds again so all this is blown out of proportion and my side hurts and my head hurts and i'm tired and upset and i hate side effects i want to cry and curl up in a hole and sleep forever
i hate myself so much it's frusterating

please don't hate me just ignore this

dumb medication
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QueenKopa's avatar
holy fuck DOOMY NO ONE HATES U so stop putting ur self down